Friday, March 06, 2009

It's raining now. It's been raining a lot this few days, rain of epic magnitude. I like it when it rains like that and I get even mellower. Sit in my corner, listening to John Mayer:



And come December, Lydia left.
She mentioned something 'bout it being for the best,
And I can't say I disagree, and its killing me.
And now I'm standing facing west
Tracing my fingers round a silhouette
I haven't gotten used to yet,
But it's the brightest thing I've got


So today's been a really good day! I got better than expected results for Management Science and Marketing - PSYCH! Financial Accounting wasn't too bad as well I suppose, but I was below class average =( But STILL, this semester is shaping up to be better than the last.

Lately Ms Lim's words about mediocrity keeps ringing in my head and I wonder if it's a sign that I'm not doing what I should be doing. The problem is, I've always been really mediocre in everything I do and I can't seem to shake that. I think it is a downward spiral that I've created myself - the more mediocre I am, the less confident I am, the less confident I am, the more mediocre I am, so on and so forth.

Hung out with Jasmine and Sups last saturday till 230am at Macs. It's great that we always meet up to overanalyze stuff. I have no idea what I would do without so much analysis in my life. And then today, I met Sups and Daniel for dinner. I think we've really all changed a lot since our council days. I don't know if it's for better or worse though. While I am a lot mellower, I'm just less enthusiastic and apprehensive about stuff, taking less initiative. *Shrug*

I should sleep now. But I feel compelled to stay up even though I am really not doing anything constructive.